"Life may not be replete with the moments that pause your soul, the vivid memories of which cause your heart to beat differently, or make it hard to swallow. And all the better. Much of the beauty of those moments lies in their rarity -- in the awe of being in the right place, at the right time, a partaker in coincidence. And in finding a reason to believe in fate..."

Friday, June 08, 2007

Paloozaheads!

hahaha! laugh trip! buti na lang bored ang mga tao. thanks to tina for this paloozahead!

Thursday, June 07, 2007

A Woman of Strength


[grabbed from Anna's site: http://lavidadulce.multiply.com]

A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape.
But a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape.
A strong woman isn't afraid of anything.
But a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear.
A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her.
But a woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone.
A strong woman walks sure footedly.
But a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls.
A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face.
But a woman of strength wears grace.
A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey.
But a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.

The road to becoming a better person, a better Catholic, a better woman and sister in Jess, is a continuing process, but with Days and with God's grace, I hope someday to truly live by and become a woman of strength... :)

Monday, June 04, 2007

On Choosing Well

For my friends who are married, planning to get married, and for those still searching and making that choice.. ;-)

Eduardo Calasanz was a student at the Ateneo de Manila where he had Father Ferriols as a professior. Father Ferriols, at that time, was the Philosophy department head. Currently he still teaches Philosophy for graduating college students in Ateneo. Father Ferriols has been very popular for his mind-opening and enriching classes but is also notorious for the grades he gives. Still people took his classes for the learning and deep insight they take home with them every day (if only they could do something about the grades...)

Come grade-giving time, Father Ferriols had a long discussion with the registrar people because he wanted to give Calasanz an A+, which the student eventually received.

Read the article below to find out why.


“Partners and Marriage”
by Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn’t want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn’t fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each others. I looked at older couples and saw, at best, mutual tolerance of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other’s presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each others’ foibles. It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible.

How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the other’s habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages.

Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side. This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other’s laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility.
One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each other’s company over the long term. If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new. Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see the relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can’t accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance doesn’t become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.

There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us everyday. To us, they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe. Marriage is a transformation we choose to make.

Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed. We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger.

It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter. But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one.

There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.

But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex. So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation.

If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom… endlessly.

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The UP Quiz

[ ] worried about getting bullied by fratmen or getting killed in a riot
[ ] got bullied by fratmen or was killed in a riot
[/] witnessed a riot
[/] watched the Oblation Run - present for 4 years! hahaha!
[/] made friends with a teacher
[/] was tricked as a freshman into attending a rally/prayer meeting
[/] wore red or black on one of those wear red or wear black days
[ ] wore red on Valentine’s Day
[ ] wore black on Valentine's Day
[/] celebrated a birthday at Mang Jimmy's
[/] learned UP Naming Mahal (and forgot it immediately after)
[/] got on the dean's list as CS or US
[ ] slept on a bench
[ ] was an RA or SA
[/] lied or begged to an RA for a slot in class
[/] participated in a there's-only-one-more-slot-are you-feeling-lucky?
[/] jogged around the campus
[/] visited the Vargas Museum
[/] knew at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name
[/] attended university level graduation
[/] got an activist for a teacher
[ ] watched a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game
[ ] watched a UP vs. any school basketball game - cheering lang napanood ko :P
[/] studied in CASAA
[/] studied in McDonald's or Jollibee Philcoa for one full night and bought just one regular-sized drink
[/] studied along Katipunan cramming in Mcdo/Starbucks
[ ] studied along Katipunan and affected the mannerisms of a stereotypical Atenean
[/] watch a play that's not required for Comm III
[ ] went stargazing
[/] ate in Chocolate Kiss, Tea Room or Chateau Verde
[/] slept in the lib
[ ] struck up a conversation with a taong grasa
[ ] wrote to/for the collegian.
[/] seriously pondered about the identity/ies of the people described in Eksenang Peyups
[/] went to the chapel
[/] got a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers while walking in Sunken Garden
[/] cut class with your block to watch a movie - cut class for many other reasons also! haha!
[ ] had a voltes V for a teacher
[ ] took a class under Joseph Palis
[ ] lied to the transcript lady to get a transcript earlier than the standard 3 months
[ ] went to a Freshman-only concert where you had to show your form 5 to prove freshmanhood
[/] subsisted on just streetfood (ex. fishballs, half footlongs, kwekwek, squidballs/rolls, mais, dirty ice cream) for a day
[/] learned how to smoke - but quit after a few weeks
[/] went on an out-of-town trip with blockmates or orgmates - AIESEC conferences! :-)
[/] fell in love
[/] actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib
[/] played cards during your free time - memories of Philo I class at MIS! Hulaan blues and pusoy dos!
[/] dress in business attire
[ ] sumabit sa jeep - bawal ang sabit sa jeep sa UP ah.
[ ] got sung to or sung to someone in class during Valentine's day
[/] watched the lantern parade -- BA'sTindahan ni Aling Nena :)
[/] helped out a total stranger
[ ] helped out a total stranger because he/she was hot
[/] learned to stay awake for more than 24 or 48 hours straight - BA 99.2, feasib, and almost all of my subjects on my last sem!
[ ] got bullied by fratmen and feeling cool wannabe people who were actually losers
[/] took Wednesday and/or Sat classes WILLINGLY - yep, still accounting class
[ ] volunteered for the pahinungod
[ ] ate "tasteless white sauce" pasta from cock-a-noodle-doo
[ ] got a boyfriend/girlfriend - hmmm... gray area :P
[/] took time to read the vandalism in the CR
[ ] watched a sexy art film for any GE class - Phone Sex starring Ara Mina. Winner tlga ang Pop Culture 101!
[/] got held up or pickpocketed - On the way home from UP, right after Sta.Clara visit. Scary!
[ ] felt depressed because you were not as good academically as you were in high school - Math 17 and BA 99.2 will forever be memorable. Sigh.
[/] did a last minute paper - gawain sa 3rd floor Computer Center
[/] had spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures - buti na lang may colored xerox ng ID sa SC
[/] got exempted from final exams
[ ] got exempted from a final exam but still took it
[/] attended a varsity pep rally
[ ] watched LIVE AIDS, Androgyny, Maskipaps or any well-known variety show
[/] promised to quit smoking - but went back after grad. trying to quit now. :)
[ ] got into at least one (org- or council-sponsored) adventure race -
[ ] knew where the best restrooms are on campus -
[/] joined an org - AIESEC and UPCE :-)
[/] allowed yourself to make mistakes
[ ] went to the gym in spite of having no PE class just to ogle varsity players
[/] took summer classes - all three summers! haha, nerdoks :P
[/] admired the oblation - semi-admired and took pictures with AIESEC trainees. hehe
[/] made a video for a project
[ ] had a crush on a teacher
[/] had a teacher who had a crush on/tried to court you - well, teacher na sha ngayon. hehehe
[ ] attended your ROTC Bivouac
[/] faked sickness to get an absence excused
[ ] got your car scratched by one of those "kuya bantayan ko kotse niyo" kids
[ ] took a PE class where you had to pay for tuition (i.e. sportsclimbing, ten pin bowling, etc)
[/] went to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes
[ ] learned how to use the Bayantel pay phones
[/] participated in school activities
[ ] caught the UP Pep Tryouts
[/] dated someone from UP
[/] rode an IKOT and TOKI
[/] found a tambayan
[ ] went drinking at Sarah's
[/] learned how to beg for a higher grade
[/] used your 6 allowable absences wisely
[ ] lived in a dorm
[/] volunteered to be beadle or go-to guy for your group/class - BA 105 field trip class
[/] had the worst schedule - 2nd year, 1st sem: 7am-7pm! Yikes!
[/] realized that there really is just one coconut tree on the sunken garden
[/] not used up all 6 allowable absences
[/] ate in ISSI, Treehouse, Mama Thai's and other more obscure cafeterias
[/] ate food Aristocart-style
[/] was active in your org - go AIESEC :-)
[/] attended an ACLE - how to open your third eye. never did open mine! hehe
[/] got as many app forms as you can during the job fair
[/] learned how to cram
[/] sold tickets for (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere - CE's Punch Drunk Love
[ ] saved money to Xerox all of your seatmate's notes
[/] had accidentally seen a make-out session - kakaiba tlga lagoon pag gabi! haha
[/] slept in class - STS :P
[/] finished a homework/assignment/paper in the shopping center or philcoa
[/] had mountains of unused sample exams and/or old testaments - STS and Natsci Sample Exams!
[/] resolved to be "better this semester"
[ ] slept during a test
[/] had groupmates from hell (ie no-shows, babblers, dependents, airheads, dreamers, idea stealers, plagiarists)
[/] learned how to work with groupmates from hell
[ ] perfected the art of parking on campus
[ ] had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus
[/] developed a love for sisig
[/] practiced those UP cheers in the first meeting for PE class
[/] looked at microfilms in the library or poked through archives - for Research class and Kas I
[/] reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function - Genmeets every Wed
[/] attended UP Fair - at ngkarumble pa. ang saya saya!
[/] went to a library other than your own college's to research - Educ, UP Main, Law, CSSP
[/] lost a perfectly functioning umbrella
[/] used consultation hours properly
[ ] went to the Guidance Office for real, heart-to-heart guidance
[/] went to the infirmary - for freshie exam lang... first and last time
[ ] attend class with a hangover or tipsy
[ ] drink beer or alcohol while inside UP grounds
[/] walked all the way to Philcoa or Katipunan
[/] bought frogs from NSRI or a Bio department - for my brother :)
[/] maxed out on the 6 allowed unexcused absences but DID NOT drop - walang attendance e
[/] got invited or pursued by a sorority or fraternity - APO Soro, AEC. muntik na tlga...
[/] wore slippers to school
[ ] had a professor who smoked in class
[ ] got diagnosed by the Infirmary as pregnant or infected with STD