Haven't updated my blog in a while... been keeping myself busy with multiply and work and well, more face-to-face interactions. Surprisingly, I even let my birthday slip past without writing about it. Hmmm, I guess I enjoy more in the story that photos portray. Or maybe I just needed to be in the mood to really write. Or I needed to have something interesting and inspiring enough to put me in the mood to write. Maybe both. Maybe all three.
But I do have some life-changing news to spare. What changed I guess, is my own attitude on blogging. For a while, I kept things to myself. I chose to indulge in this overwhelming miracle by myself, instead of the usual detailed report of all the roller coaster emotions I was feeling, minute by minute—letting the world know the ins and outs of my crazy mind and well, life in general. Which is apparently the trend my whole blogspot has adopted, now that I browse through the archives.
A lot has indeed happened over the years: change in careers, DAYS experiences, falling in love, getting heartbroken… and the cycle goes on. Even my perspective on life and people has changed in the few years that I have had the chance to write. Today, I choose to be more positive, hopeful, optimistic. More spiritual and forgiving. More goal-oriented and decisive about what I happen to in my life. More charitable and generous not just with my friends, but to strangers and people in general. More grateful for the multitudes of blessings Jess has showered on me.
Because there are truly a lot of blessings—2008 has been a good good year for me so far. I’ve fulfilled a lot of lifelong dreams in albeit a short period of time. I went to Hong Kong and rekindled my second childhood in Disneyland. I launched successfully a new brand to an audience of 500 doctors, all top medical professionals, my biggest career feat so far. I was able to renew my US VISA for 10 years. And... I met someone great. I fell in love.. for real this time :-)
This is my first "official" relationship (friends who know me from back then would totally understand! haha!) After all the miscommunications, what-ifs, hopeless frustrated longing... I finally met someone I have prayed for all my life.
I've always known that I would end up with a friend. I just didn't realize it was going to be this friend. Haha! Jess really works in mysterious ways. And the way things happened as well wasn't really expected, from both our ends, and yet I wouldn't have had it any other way. At times, I think about my life and think that maybe this is all too good to be true. That this is all a dream. I've been so used to being single and independent and forever searching, that sometimes it surprises me when I realize I'm already with someone and that someone I can truly share my life with. I'm still adjusting to the dependency part, as I've been so used to solving things on my own and solving other people's problems as well.. so it's a nice feeling when I can be all damsel-in-distress and let him worry about things for a change. At times when he tells me he loves me and I'm beautiful and all those sweet nothings (mushy moments that would really make other people cringe! haha!), I'm so tempted to ask him back: "talaga??" "sigurado ka??" Which of course I don't say out loud anymore. Baka bawiin eh. haha. Classic case of insecurity, of reality still sinking in. Can you blame me though? I've been told that a million times (yak, buhatan ng bangko!) but I just rolled my eyes in disbelief. For the first time, I want to believe that it's real. And that all these are truly meant for me, for us.
I think of us now and I realize that he is truly my male version, in so many ways. There is a sound reason, a greater power behind our paths being meant to cross. My friends and my family ask me, why him, after all this time? Besides all the qualities that make him so endearing to me, in truth, he is a good man, inside and out.. which is a rarity nowadays. What I'm most proud of, is that we're both spiritually grounded, as I've met him through DAYS community, and we both feel strongly about our work as staffers and our faith in Jess. And what made him stand out.. is that he was the only one who took me, who took us seriously. He was someone who envisioned a future, and was willing to make it work despite our crazy lives and busy schedules. And I love him more for that.
And yet, there are still many things that are different between us... and yet the differences help me learn new things and keep things more interesting for us. I now understand the beauty of believing in God's will and in God's time.. for if I didn't go through being single all of my life, of having unrequited feelings, of being made to hope only to be let down, of loving and losing... I would not be able to appreciate deeply the blessing of having him and this relationship in my life now.
Like what he always says... he cannot ask for anything more. And yet I do. I pray continuously for more happy days and years... that we may grow in love and faith and learn to become better people, better dazers, better Christians. I pray that He will guide us continuously as we begin this new life together, and God-willing, for the rest of our lives...
Basta ikaw Mochie, mahal na mahal kita :-)
But I do have some life-changing news to spare. What changed I guess, is my own attitude on blogging. For a while, I kept things to myself. I chose to indulge in this overwhelming miracle by myself, instead of the usual detailed report of all the roller coaster emotions I was feeling, minute by minute—letting the world know the ins and outs of my crazy mind and well, life in general. Which is apparently the trend my whole blogspot has adopted, now that I browse through the archives.
A lot has indeed happened over the years: change in careers, DAYS experiences, falling in love, getting heartbroken… and the cycle goes on. Even my perspective on life and people has changed in the few years that I have had the chance to write. Today, I choose to be more positive, hopeful, optimistic. More spiritual and forgiving. More goal-oriented and decisive about what I happen to in my life. More charitable and generous not just with my friends, but to strangers and people in general. More grateful for the multitudes of blessings Jess has showered on me.
Because there are truly a lot of blessings—2008 has been a good good year for me so far. I’ve fulfilled a lot of lifelong dreams in albeit a short period of time. I went to Hong Kong and rekindled my second childhood in Disneyland. I launched successfully a new brand to an audience of 500 doctors, all top medical professionals, my biggest career feat so far. I was able to renew my US VISA for 10 years. And... I met someone great. I fell in love.. for real this time :-)
This is my first "official" relationship (friends who know me from back then would totally understand! haha!) After all the miscommunications, what-ifs, hopeless frustrated longing... I finally met someone I have prayed for all my life.
I've always known that I would end up with a friend. I just didn't realize it was going to be this friend. Haha! Jess really works in mysterious ways. And the way things happened as well wasn't really expected, from both our ends, and yet I wouldn't have had it any other way. At times, I think about my life and think that maybe this is all too good to be true. That this is all a dream. I've been so used to being single and independent and forever searching, that sometimes it surprises me when I realize I'm already with someone and that someone I can truly share my life with. I'm still adjusting to the dependency part, as I've been so used to solving things on my own and solving other people's problems as well.. so it's a nice feeling when I can be all damsel-in-distress and let him worry about things for a change. At times when he tells me he loves me and I'm beautiful and all those sweet nothings (mushy moments that would really make other people cringe! haha!), I'm so tempted to ask him back: "talaga??" "sigurado ka??" Which of course I don't say out loud anymore. Baka bawiin eh. haha. Classic case of insecurity, of reality still sinking in. Can you blame me though? I've been told that a million times (yak, buhatan ng bangko!) but I just rolled my eyes in disbelief. For the first time, I want to believe that it's real. And that all these are truly meant for me, for us.
I think of us now and I realize that he is truly my male version, in so many ways. There is a sound reason, a greater power behind our paths being meant to cross. My friends and my family ask me, why him, after all this time? Besides all the qualities that make him so endearing to me, in truth, he is a good man, inside and out.. which is a rarity nowadays. What I'm most proud of, is that we're both spiritually grounded, as I've met him through DAYS community, and we both feel strongly about our work as staffers and our faith in Jess. And what made him stand out.. is that he was the only one who took me, who took us seriously. He was someone who envisioned a future, and was willing to make it work despite our crazy lives and busy schedules. And I love him more for that.
And yet, there are still many things that are different between us... and yet the differences help me learn new things and keep things more interesting for us. I now understand the beauty of believing in God's will and in God's time.. for if I didn't go through being single all of my life, of having unrequited feelings, of being made to hope only to be let down, of loving and losing... I would not be able to appreciate deeply the blessing of having him and this relationship in my life now.
Like what he always says... he cannot ask for anything more. And yet I do. I pray continuously for more happy days and years... that we may grow in love and faith and learn to become better people, better dazers, better Christians. I pray that He will guide us continuously as we begin this new life together, and God-willing, for the rest of our lives...
Basta ikaw Mochie, mahal na mahal kita :-)
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